Progress By Me

After I wrote the post this morning, I forced myself out of the house and to the office to get some work done. For an hour or more it felt good to distract myself and lose myself in my work. But eventually I came back to what I was feeling before, and now I don't even feel like I can work.

I'm learning things. While I don't have control over how I will feel when I wake up, that's not necessarily indicative of how I'll feel 10 minutes later.

I'm in a downward spiraling loop, falling farther each swing, and I am having a hard time pulling out of the dive.

It does seem like I spend a lot of my time thinking about food, and not in a healthy way. I spend my time thinking about how hungry I am and what I'd rather be eating than what I happen to be doing right at that moment.